Was thinking of some what ifs a long time back.
about things in JC.

hmm. what if i hadnt gone to tj?
would my relationship with certain secondary school frens be better?
what would my cca be?
would i get into the choir wherever i might have gone? though my singing sucks. lol.
who would i have met?
would my frenship with them be better?

then... what if i had changed my subject combi to double math, double science after the 1st 3 months?
which class would i have ended up in?
would i turn out differently?
would my grades be better? or worse?
who would my frens be?

what if i had quit oac?
what would i have joined?
would i still remain close with frens in oac?
probably not, in all honesty.
would i have lived regretting my whole jc life?
then again, being freer, would i have concentrated more on my studies?
would i have reached home earlier every night?
but would i have gained that sense of satisfaction i felt so many times when i was in there?
would i have got to see the oac room? ha. duh no for this.
would i have been better frens with my classmates?
would i have joined them more, pangseh-ed them less?

if i had not got into a relationship,
would i be happier?
would i have gotten into another one? probably not.
would my grades be better?
would my frenship with him get better?
would i have spent less time fan nao-ing?
i think so. but i can never be sure.

just one little step taken differently and history could have been totally changed.
however, there is definitely no room for regrets, no room for dwelling on the inexhaustive possibilities.
everyone's gotta move on. :)

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